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[quote="RASCZAK"][quote="SUBXERO"]IF anyone would like to do a special pod cast talking about this issue please inbox me i think we can help a lot of the community talking about this :) [/quote] Since Sub and Cupid are not doing podcasts for the community until alakazam is unbanned I will do a podcast on This subject if anyone is willing to discuss it. [/quote]

[quote="CELTS"][quote="RASCZAK"][quote="SUBXERO"]IF anyone would like to do a special pod cast talking about this issue please inbox me i think we can help a lot of the community talking about this :) [/quote] Since Sub and Cupid are not doing podcasts for the community until alakazam is unbanned I will do a podcast on This subject if anyone is willing to discuss it. [/quote] pm me in game [/quote]

[quote="LUPISCUS"]i wasnt suicidal last year.. but pretty pissed off....so decided at beginning of year to upsticks and move back to my hometown to be near my mum. No job...no money...now 3 mnths later... nice flat... 10k£ in the bank from cashin in a little pension... Paid off debts and rent on my flat paid up for rest of the year.... still no job...superb... new headphones...some new trance cd's ..top str antidepressants and stocked up with wine... Gona go out 2morra and spend a grand on some nice boots/ leather jacket/ jeans etc....and sit back and play soma for couple of months..... suicide? fuk that it proly hurts x ( not depressed at all..they jus make u feel nice ;p )[/quote]

[quote="LINNYI"][quote="LUPISCUS"]i wasnt suicidal last year.. but pretty pissed off....so decided at beginning of year to upsticks and move back to my hometown to be near my mum. No job...no money...now 3 mnths later... nice flat... 10k£ in the bank from cashin in a little pension... Paid off debts and rent on my flat paid up for rest of the year.... still no job...superb... new headphones...some new trance cd's ..top str antidepressants and stocked up with wine... Gona go out 2morra and spend a grand on some nice boots/ leather jacket/ jeans etc....and sit back and play soma for couple of months..... suicide? fuk that it proly hurts x ( not depressed at all..they jus make u feel nice ;p )[/quote] Hope you treated your mom 😀[/quote]

[quote="LINNYI"][quote="RASCZAK"][quote="SUBXERO"]IF anyone would like to do a special pod cast talking about this issue please inbox me i think we can help a lot of the community talking about this :) [/quote] Since Sub and Cupid are not doing podcasts for the community until alakazam is unbanned I will do a podcast on This subject if anyone is willing to discuss it. [/quote] To be honest I don't think a podcast discussing depression, anxiety or suicide is appropriate especially on a game like soma. [/quote]

[quote="LUPISCUS"]i did lin :)[/quote]

[quote="SALKOOTH"]Very genuine looking thread, wish I found it sooner. Nice one. Thought I'd post this in the hope it helps someone. I don't pretend to have dealt with things the right way or correctly but they worked for me. I came to Soma in 2002, after trying it in beta and swiftly moving on (lol- I seem to remember tigers running through TYT) I came back though for its release and there I was wanting a complete escape, as I was suffering with anxiety a hell of a lot and it was stopping me from holding down jobs and literally it was getting to a point where I couldnt catch my breath, full blown panic attacks, the symptoms got worse over a couple of years and I eventually started getting them at home. I would hide them from my parents and siblings and friends until I was no longer able too. After going to my doctor, I was prescribed anti depressants as a 'sedative'. Didn't work though and I came off them after about 3 days, side affects were too wild for me. Anyway, the only thing I wanted was time and space, I needed a distraction from the something I had no idea about dealing with. I grew up in Nottinghamshire, in fact a mining town, everyones parents or grand parents worked in the pits, and in recent years they had closed and a lot of hard working people were out of work. Men were men, even my friends and my kind of problems weren't talked about (the 90's). Little did I know, I just had the wrong friends. That's where Soma came in (2002 ish). I did know my triggers at the time but I needed just complete down time from everyone and everything. So I think for best part of a year I locked myself in my room and played Soma, and a few other games. It was gradual but my anxiety at home subsided completely. My triggers were simply bad friends whom use to stress me out. Otherwise, I was a happy go lucky lad in a large family still. Anyway, thankfully prior to those times and even occasionally during those times,I did the clubbing scene, kissed girls, got stoned on weed a few times, drove round a local circuit in Fiestas and Novas speeding around trying to pick up women etc. So though those friends were too much for me at times, they had their upsides. But were just bad eggs in general. That said I actually seemed to find normal people to be friends with at college. Good times. After that year of isolatin, I had to retrain myself to going outside. The breathing thing seeming to be a real problem and more so being wary of it. That was tough lol but after a few months of every day pushing myself a little further from home, I became free and more dependant as I ever was. From there, I dated girls and worked and managed to hold down a job for two years. I'm not saying I was 100% ok but I was the most ok I had been in years and I blended in - I just found a way forward, my own way. And its important I say this, now and probably for the rest of my life, I only really remember pushing myself every day, and I remember the mental strength it gave me to re-empower myself, to feel in control. And you'd be surprised what it does for you. I then also remember the couple of friends that I learnt to trust and rely on without having to completely open up. Sadly my father then died after a year of things swinging upwards. It was unexpectedly which kind of broke the family apart I think over the coming years. That last Christmas he brought me a telescope. Did the anxiety return... no... was I fearful of it, yes. Did I have friends and family to talk to, yes, even my friends on Esoma, mostly in Destroyers. For years I beat myself up over the last conversation me and him ever had. Was I possibly depressed yes, or maybe just numb but I knew it was ok to feel like that, just like I knew it was okay to feel like you are struggling but just keep moving forward. Very quickly I started a career in IT, the one thing I had any confidence or knowledge in. Some 13 years later, I'm now married, have a mortgage, two cars, and a career spanning over a decade. I learnt and am still learning to share everything I have and that I am with another person, and believe me when I say, that is not easy. I'll always remember the bad times or the situations that made me sad or anxious but they are just memories to me. I took a lot from them and learnt and became humble. That's not to say theres simply a happily ever after, there are always and will always be challenges. One even not too long ago. Only 5 years ago a manager and his underling was trying to bully me because I was a threat to his job and place within a company and used intimidation tactics and methods to dislodge me. I dealt with that by not emotionally involving in the situation and during a confrontation I asked him "What makes you feel that way?", that single question defused him and he had no answer for me. So he stayed the way he was, as did I. He wanted to make it personal, I had no interest. He left 6 months later, followed by his minion, who even started to look to me for advice. I remained. That's just one example where I've succeeded and overcome, and I think anyone who has had similar problems to my own can do the same. I'm the biggest critic of myself which is probably the thing I would change but other wise I'm pretty happy these days. Though, does anxiety or worry play a part in my life, of course and its up to each us to learn healthy ways of dealing but we also have to acknowledge that sometimes, its ok to be a bit sad, or depressed or want to be alone. Its normal. Don't let it define you or be alone. In fact the internet is a great place for only letting in the people you actually want. It was 20 years ago and it still is now. Emotions should be, in most cases, like a speeding train that you just need to get out the way off and let it pass. The few other emotions are allowed to last forever and that's why I'm keeping that telescope. I hope my story is useful to someone, even if that person wants to remain anon. /Foxtrck [/quote]

[quote="LINNYI"]Wonderful powerful words x[/quote]

[quote="ENIMEEZE"]I often wonder if we just have bad luck sometimes, the place I work is so unstable I'm looking for another job again as of Friday[/quote]

[quote="LINNYI"][quote="ENIMEEZE"]I often wonder if we just have bad luck sometimes, the place I work is so unstable I'm looking for another job again as of Friday[/quote] Maybe it's not the job you were destined for x[/quote]

[quote="ENIMEEZE"][quote="LINNYI"][quote="ENIMEEZE"]I often wonder if we just have bad luck sometimes, the place I work is so unstable I'm looking for another job again as of Friday[/quote] Maybe it's not the job you were destined for x[/quote] It would appear I am destined for no job[/quote]

[quote="CYA"]foxy man that was a good read im glad things are going well for you [/quote]

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[quote="MARTIGAN"]Sorry. I have a short span of attention so a lot of what I write or wrote is weird. I also thinnk this is one of the reasons why I seem to do good a work and not so good in private life. At work Im aggressive and push, while in private im dying[/quote]